what I learned today

The dream I had before waking up this morning was like a movie. I didn't want to stop being in it because I was super curious to know what would happen next. I can't even go into detail about how elaborate it was. I wasn't even myself in the dream. I seemed to be some very showy early twenties influencer in a very fast paced caribbean space where the rich and famous and gangsta's all hang out. It was really something I never find myself even thinking about. Alas, I got up and the day began and my mood swiftly changed from quite neural to moody. I observed myself getting really dark and upset about nothing and everything. I was glad that I was calling myself out as I observed myself. I was annoyed to have to go out this morning, I was annoyed that my daughter isn't feeling her best, and is shutting me out since her accident. I am anxious because her birthday is in two weeks and I want to get somethings for her and my sister shall be home in a week and the money is yet to arrive to do it. I was just sour. So very sour, sour, sour about all of these things. As I walked out of the house, I said to myself that I can look at everything that is affecting my mood and consider all of the other parts of those things that are making me feel that way. For example, my daughter and I are to reunite in two weeks. I always have things that I do for her that she loves. I have things to complete and new work to focus on. I have not come to a standstill in any way. That helped tremendously and I was able to just gradually feel better. I am writing about it here because I really want to get a handle on my moods and ways to do better.