so emotional baby

I got some sage advice today before going off to the funeral of a dear relative and darling Auntie. She was not feeling well and everything just progressed quickly after that.Her death impacted me dramatically because of the way that she lived her life. She was fun loving, bubbly, confident and beautiful. Her twin brother, I don't know how he shall deal with this sudden loss.What her death has taught me is that there is really no time to waste. Do the things that you want to do and do them no matter what! This life is so short, so filled with uncertainty. I was thinking of taking a picture of myself and putting the words, living while terrified underneath it. What I mean is that, I have found that there have been things in my life that I have no idea how to handle them, but I put one foot in front of the other and I get what I need to get, done.I am usually criticizing myself.But today, that can wait.I am taking a moment to feel good about myself for a change. I have a brave streak, an adventurous streak. When I feel confident, look out. I am unstoppable. When I can see how to do something, it gets done!I have seen myself turn people around for the better more times than I can count. I inspire myself. I like that I can make light of things, turn the other cheek and really move on from something that seemed to make me feel stuck. I am always looking to do something better. I don't wallow for long. I am loving, warm, friendly. I put people at ease. I actually care about people. I like making others happy.I am a problem solver. I take no pleasure in the misfortunes of others. I want everyone to feel good about themselves. When I am faced with challenges, I don't blame other people. I get introspective about what i can do to be better, do better, or I understand that some things cannot be changed and I do my best not to sweat the small stuff. There is much more about me to like than to feel distressed about. Right now I believe that finally I am telling myself the things that I must, to be genuinely happy. Alot of it will come from acting instead of processing and weighing every step. I remember when I would ask myself what I needed, and I would face a blank page. I could not even conjure up the simple sentence...walking in the grass and looking up at the sky. I was so tightly coiled. I have faced losing people I love, I've faced having no money. I have faced many things, and I know people who make my issues seem self indulgent. I am more good than not, and I feel so fortunate right now. So happy.