more thoughts on that thing

How can I pile on to what is already a difficult situation with my friend? How is it that one friendship has to come to an end when you feel abused and another that can be heading in that direction has to be remidied with what was learned from the last one? Should I just stop having conversations with her where she can speak into my life? That is an option. I did that with the last friend too. I just stopped voanteering anything about me, and she didn't even notice. She would go on and on about herself for most of the conversation. Is it me? Am I a bad friend? Am I the one noticing all of these tiny but to me, substantial things, because I am the difficult one? I went into a whole speal about my male friend and his affection. It is true that I have to do whatever I feel I must for my own self care. But what about getting so anticeptic that no one can enter my life? I really have to think about this situation that I see reaccuring again and again in my life.