existential thoughts

What I was feeling while my two friends talked shop was the feeling of being close to where I would like to go and better. The last time this was the case I was in Glasgow. In my field there are millions of people hoping and for successes of all kind. One of the conversations I had with my friend was the fact that the Arts in our country is not affixed to activism and should be, This has resonated with me because a lot of my work is hinged in it. It is sort of strange to be in such an orbit...I want my work to be seen. I want to make more work and of course I want it to sell well and to create a legacy. I had that usual wobbly feeling of where am I in the context of this experience where it seems that the two parties are successful and uber aware of where they are going, and I am a bystander to it all, so I feel weird. I was talking with a friend the day before about women in our profession...where are the exceptional ones in terms of powerful work.