...more on discomfort...

This year I am finding how much I strive for certain things and do not realise how close I sometimes am, or that I am already in the middle of those accomplishments. Sometimes you are busy thinking that you would be so much better off if and when a certain amount of money presents itself. Then sometimes you realise how much you are contradicting yourself with the very things that you think will make you happy. Also, trying to project ahead to next year and so on, particularly when covid-19 really shifted things so drastically, what now? Just for a moment it is essential to literally step away from yourself if you can. You just shut down all the noise and you allow yourself to put all of your usual constant thoughts on hold. You just ask yourself for this one moment to stop thinking in the supposedly ordered way that you are used to. It is worth listening to what comes through to you then. It is a bit like a video game or Sci-Fi movie. empty space at first and then a bunch of projectiles that are all vying for your attention and a return to what you always do. But you have to be a great Tennis player. Eventually you can latch on to a new or a different thought on your old way of thinking and you can follow that and then that leads you to somewhere new and even possibly a solution to some things that you can never fix with the same thinking. I will even go further...I ask myself, what script am I reading? What have I set up for my particular beliefs on what I deserve or expect and what IS?