such beautiful failure

I haven't done this, I haven't done that. Suddenly I don't look like myself one moment and then the next I think it may be coming back. F__A__C__E______L__I__F__E squarely on and realise that I have something before me. A few weeks ago a very creative designer died. It was a slap in the face. I had been seeing their work and really enjoying it as I had to go past it a few times. That is what our work is supposed to do. I looked at a lot of what they had been doing when I heard about their passing, and as always, I found myself lamenting for their sudden ending. But they had enough work for me to say, what a body. There is a funny back and forth when writing about this. You have to be in the moment and just DO. I am writing so much today because I want to work, but I am exhausted. I think that I have mentioned this in the last few days. I have had at least three days of constant work with only three and four hours of sleep and stopping only to bring my food before my computer. I do it whenever I have a project, but this one was a doozy I guess because it was supposed to be a quick project and turned out to be as intense as any others I do. Also, I am in a funny mental space where I am in a limbo....coming down from things that came at me from many directions. So I am telling myself, come down from everything and decompress. Be grateful to be able to do so. You shall be setting off again very shortly.