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The things that I have found to be confrontational this year has taught me a great deal. As I approach another birthday, I am particularly wistful about emotions. I have no other way to put it. For it is emotions that steer ones way, and as I have become used to sitting within silence, emotions have beoome the forst thing that comes forward to break said silence. So, I may be busy, focused...and depending on the circumstances, I can be prodded, jolted or as the slang goes, triggered. But what is particularly forthcoming when I am placed within that moment, is awareness of my seperateness from it as I am in it. So there is also a moment of watching and wanting the moment to get on with it so that I can get by it.