and then you blink

When I woke up this morning I made an agreement with myself to not let anything or anyone rob me of my happiness. I have been a tiny bit challenged the last few days by nothing in particular. But enough to make the pledge. I have amidst all of that decided to re-Christen juliemangoman to a name I prefer, my husband. Yep, I am calling him that from now on. I think that it suits him. Analysis at a much later date...meanwhile, I have some thinking to do about my career and my future plans. I just feel less than satisfied with everything I am doing at the moment. I know that this is because I have not had any particular achievement and feel that everyone around me happens to be doing their thing. But as I write, I realize that what I really need a studio. I need a place to work, and I am not sure where that can be. However, my colleague and I are meeting today and we are going to be talking about an alternative to what we are both doing now, so already I feel better. Also, I am going to do the business. I am not certain when I shall start it officially. I have quite a few details to work out. But bet your bottom dollar, I am going to make it happen. Again...that energizes me....my book and the other two that I am to do, November is fast approaching, so I have to take a good look at where I am with that and plot on. That makes me feel good too. I am supposed to go to New York for Christmas, but if I don't I think it may be interesting to go somewhere else...I have not thought about that until now. But it may suit me to consider somewhere closer to home. I was admiring people I know who are making their lives dynamic. Sometimes I feel as though I am a total bore. What am I not doing for myself that I want to be experiencing? The list has not changed. But my attitude has. I think that in the months ahead I must work on the large projects that I set for myself. I shall continue this train of thought offline and get back here when more concrete things insue.