Friday, April 10, 2020

The Covid-19 world

I did not realise that I had not come to my blog for so long! The Covid-19 Pandemic could do that. So much is going on. In the morning, I get up, do the usual things for breakfast and then turn the television on to our government letting us know what is happening with the citizens who have the virus and all the other important questions and answers about the economy and safety and who can work and who isn't required to go out because we all MUST STAY AT HOME. There have been many good things coming out of the whole thing thus far. I was staying at home ever since January, but I did have a few freelance things that I was doing, and I was on the verge of doing a presentation for my university. The day I was supposed to set up, the news came that the event was postponed. Shortly thereafter, schools were closed and people encouraged to stay at home. Since then I have not been idle at all. I have scheduled certain projects that I have always wanted to do and to complete and I have also had moments where I could also just relax. At first I had the notion that I still had no time on my hands. Then, slowly, I saw that what I was doing was assuming that I had to do everything all at once. When I considered my exercise routine (which I stopped a little while after schools closed) that I obviously gain strength and muscle from frequency and variety...I was good. I have been working out at home and getting better results! Who would have thought. Then, I am able to Skype my child! YES!!!! Finally!!!! We do not do it every day, but often enough, and I am so happy about that. Then, the biggest surprise came during a Facebook chat with a friend. I got a message from juliemangoman. He wanted to know how I was doing! The person that I was talking with knows the story, so she teased me about it...in fact, we were having a laugh about him the day before with me able to make fun of myself regarding what I would have been doing if everything had worked out. So I know that I had really grown from the experience. It has now been two weeks and we have been communicating. The best thing that has come out of all of this is my knowing what I want and what it now means to me. I shall write about it in another post. My friend on the other hand, we had a challenge today. She had had issues with her children, and something that has been festering (in her mind) for a decade or more has now come to the fore. I was doing my best to give her support and comfort, but my friend is blocked in her thinking and I conceeded that I could not help her. Today, she brought it up again and claimed that she was made ill by the whole thing. This is all in her own mind. Pretty much like what is going on with my father right now. He hasn't been walking and every time we try to move him to get him bathed or comfortable, my mother, aunt and I are at our wits end because the physio-therapist who visits him says that he is perfectly well and can walk, and we can see that he can walk because of the way he acts when we distract him or I move him by myself. I don't ell my friend about my challenges with my father...she cannpt really say or do anything. But she goes into deep detail about everything happening with her. I am not comparing us to say that I want her listening to my issues, but that, to me, there are things that you work on and resolve. Having to rely on someone elses opinion or sounding off to a friend just to throw your worries on them isn't friendship. She talks about vampires....and I am saddened to write that she can say that because she embodies it as well. Of course I have to be careful, because if I too see that, then I must do it too! We are all vulnerable, this virus is making men and boys of us all. ....this should be a part one....

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