Looking at some old passports from 2015 to the present had me recalling ideas and looking at pictures of myself, my daughter and several friends. In so doing I actually realised that being critical about how you feel you look is a bit foolish because every year your a little bit older, so you shall always find that you didn't realise how much better you look than you thought. Lol. I think that the same can also be said for much of what you consider doing when you look at the context. You are always weighing the odds. I also find this year that I am super conscious about decisions and their outcome. I look at my island every day whether I walk a short distance of take transportation a long distance...the issues are the same, that of seeing a lot of abandoned buildings that once was a shiny new idea. I lament what looks like waste to me, as people need shelter and many of them should be re-purposed for that, but in so many instances the houses are abandoned over family disputes. I also think about how short time is. Death is always on my mind since the deaths of my auntie and my dad. But sometimes I can be less morbid about it. Sometimes I can be downright thankful for daily breath as opposed to the last one. It is the little things in the end. When I consider dad sitting looking out at the garden on those last days when he felt a bit better, I hope that he wasn't too alone or scared about the end. All of this effort is made to keep your head above water from year to year and you are always just guessing. What matters at the end of all of the effort being made? Your supposed to be smart if you got rich...but really define what wealth really is? Of course this is always answered one way until your facing huge money needs that come o so quickly so often for so many. That high horse humbles us all.