My goodness, what a difference a day and another perspective can give.Today i heard from my uncle in Canada. He has been here three times for the year,and this last time, he had a long talk with my ex-husband.I have come to now understand that he would prefer not to have me stay at his home. He cannot come out and say this to me,so he has been beating around the bush and involving my ex-husband in conversation.
So why am I writing such a title on this blog?I have woken up!I am clear at last! It has taken a very long time for me to get here. But now that I have done so, there is certainly no going back to past behavior. I have given people I call 'authority figures'control of my life. I yield to their perceived knowledge over my own. This is my most trying trait. These AF's are my parents,elder family members,my boss and anyone who is older and seems to have a title. It's not everybody, but the habit can be seen in my life in the guise of such. Now my ex-husband is younger than I, so how did he factor into AF, he does this by using the script of appearing to have facts and data to suggest to me that he knows more than I do.
My history with this embarrasses me. I have been afraid to make decisions because of the pressure I have felt about this.
But now that I can look at it for what it was, I now feel that I can move forward.
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