once more from the peanut gallery

Our little one was ill today, so we both rushed into parents with sick child mode. When we are in it,we are like old times,including wanting to take up all of her attention.(Although this blog is private,I have been guarding against saying the sex of my child, but I just let it slip and I have decided that my pre-empting this information makes no sense,so I shan't continue to do that here anymore.)
I have had that sort of day,a day where I have looked back on my past and have had to just say that I must move forward once and for all.We went to the councillor and then we actually went out to eat together.I cannot recall when we have done this before,other than when we were married.
I want to process the evening a bit more before I write further.It affected both of us quite a bit.Much occupies my thoughts,because of all that I have been through most recently. Life is so short,so much time is wasted. So much said cannot be taken back.
What I got out of this last encounter with the councillor is that going over the same ground all the time when actually we have the same desires for our daughter is such that someone has to give. Someone has to let go of the desire to be right.
I always feel that it is me, but this evening,I saw that the very thing that I claim not to be and the very thing that I say that I want,I may very well have been repelling it in the very person I wanted it from.
I think that this has been my biggest lesson for 2010,and that is,finding another way to look at an issue that has been looked at one way.