Oh, hello

One of the good things that I rely on myself for,is that I can be very focused. I am not easily distracted. If I am, it is because I want to do many things, and finally, I have been able to organize myself better where that is concerned. I have come to understand that in order to do it all, I have to treat myself like I would a student. Lol. I have to break things down into modules and increments and compartmentalize things where I really give everything I want to do some time...small bits of time...but consistent time. The way I used to behave when I had to read something complex for an assignment. It doesn't mean that things are not difficult, or a long process of try and try again. I still feel all of the anxiety and worry, sadness and hope and anything else that comes to visit me and keep me mired in doubt. Its just that I am familiar with everything I feel now. I know what it does and I know how it prevents me from achieving what I set out to do. Now, I can say, Oh, hello. I see you. Sit down a minute, I may even let you drone on for a spell. But guess what? I shall also be working while you talk. Ha! Take that! I think that I learned that from talking to my friend who makes demands on me sometimes....she and my neighbor who call and go on and on about their lives. When they do that, it is inevitable that it becomes my problem too. By listening and giving support, I take on the problem. Sometimes I want to, sometimes I empathize, But sometimes, its way too much and I have begun to put a stop to that. I cannot give all of my energy. I need it for myself.