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The situation I experienced with my friend really showed me how you create your reality. She has not called me since, and I have not called her either. I found her behavior abusive to me, so I am giving myself space from her. In the past, I would not wait for her to apologize if I needed to speak with her. I would just call her up and bring up the issue and work it out. This time I feel no desire to do that. No desire to 'fix' the situation, and that is because I really believe that if she sees me as just another one of her friends that she bad talks with me, then I could do without it. I have always been patient with her and a straight shooter. The fact that she could call me and pressure me one day after receiving my Fathers' ashes. one week after his funeral...and expect me to just feel bad because she wants me to do so, is bananas. Just as she can choose to manipulate me, I choose to act as I am now. I am still annoyed at the whole thing because I cannot believe that she could be as insensitive as she has been to me! Thus, I conclude that she doesn't really care about me at all after all of this time. On another note, I do research every day, and yesterday I came across a great article online from a local businessman. He wrote about setting up his own business and he gave tips and costs and addresses to check and it was fantastic. He has done more for me than all of the sites I have gone on and worked with in the past. I have assisted my friend in so many ways with her business, and I have constantly said to her that i would like to bounce my business ideas off of her in the same way to figure out how to go forward with my own business, but she never really spent any meaningful time there. Now, I will just do it as I expected, by myself. Right away, I went over the online learning site that I have been flirting with for the last five or so years, and things started clicking. I am thrilled. More about this next time.