Anything you focus on you attract

Or at least that is how I am feeling about negative things at the moment. My husband just called me, and we talked about my trip and his belief about how I should approach it.
I realised that I felt uncomfortable talking to him. I had my back up because we seem to not be able to see eye to eye and we quarrel so much that although the call was important, I could not relax.
So much has happened to us that I have to admit, I find it hard to do better than I do. Although I countered everything he reacted to with my own volleys.
I suppose what bothers me most is the old 'us'. We always said 'I miss you' and 'I love you.' No matter what. Or at least that used to make all of the quarreling less stressful. Now, so many rapid changes have strained us, or at least I feel strained. He keeps his feelings to himself. Or I don't enquire about them really.

I know that in order for things to feel better, it starts with me feeling better. And I know that tonight I had been so busy today that my energy is very low and any conversation that could have led to disagreement would have been a disaster, so the fact that our conversation was pleasent although we spoke of emotional stuff, was actually a good sign.

WIll he be willing to make further efforts? Will I be willing?

We shall have to meet each other half way.