On my way home tonight, my mind was racing in the same way that it had on my way to my classes. I was practically grumbling with myself. Going over in my mind all that has happened in the last two years. At one point I had to chastize myself because I didn't want it to distract me from my work. It was not until I rounded the bend to Brimley Road that some reason kicked in.
I heard myself finally think, if you want to live the way that you want to, then you have to feel it spiritually inside, and by spiritualy, I mean positively.
In the past you somehow thought that what happens to you is somehow outside of you, and thus, you have very little control over it. But what I am saying to you is that, if you want the things that are bothering you to work out for the better, you have to confront them as the illusions that they are and know that you treat them from that spiritual centre.
So, you cannot say, you want this or that to be better, and then act the same way. Your expectations must be in keeping with the change that you seek.

Look at it practically. In other areas of your life, if you want to do well at a task, you put positive thought into it, and it succeeds. The same applies with your life.

So, if it is about getting love, you must be loving, and so on.
Do not be loving to get love. No, be loving because that is the way. It ultimately isn't about the other person, but about an imbalance in myself that is the issue. To do it for someone else is not the way.

The kingdom of heaven is literally within you.