new day

My letter drove home the point it was meant to. I was quite surprised because I am resolved that any continuation, any inkling of that sort of thing shall lead me right back here, and I will walk.
I think that it is necessary for me to keep my focus. He really got me upset, and I found his reaction way overblown for the circumstances. Tonight, he explained all of the stresses he is facing, but that is no reason to add me to his list of personal concerns.
It was good for me to stand my ground and to know that I would be fine and that I can see myself doing well, no matter what.
Ultimately life is not about your loved one's hold on your emotions, but your own hold on emotions.

I asked myself a few questions in my soul searching today, and that is a good place to start. What do I want for myself in the next few months?

I have a number of options, the course that I am doing is one where I can continue to study and add Flash. Doing that can lead to a number of design jobs. Then there is my personal work for exhibition. There is a show in November in Trinidad that I am now thinking about, as I got that email today. Then there is the information that I got during Thanksgiving about submitting works to galleries. I also have a hunch about Columbia University in New York and have to follow up on that in November.
There is still Italy and France looming near as well, but those things cannot be dealt with until at least 2009 in one instance and after February 2008 in the other.
The great thing about Europe is that it opens a whole slew of new possibilities.

Writing this is making me feel better already.

I have choices and amazing things to look forward to, and that doesn't even include the most important thing of all, my little one! I was feeling so down a little while ago when I thought about her. I miss her all the time, but sometimes I miss her even more than normal, and I grieve in a way. This is the hardest part of being away from her.

But back to the plans. There are a few, and they are all do-able.
One of the things that I must do too, is my own site. Particularly if I decide as I am considering, to have a virtual business online. That is also very exciting to me. I have begun to research that as well.
So there we are, I have a number of options, and for tonight, that's a good start.