Between yesterday and today, I have had a few experiences that I want to put here. I saw the guy again and he let me know that he was not trying to pressure me, and that no one has to know our business...etc, etc. It was so awkward that I was not in a position to tell him that I was not interested in going out with him. Then this afternoon, I actually saw him on my way home. I never see him when I am traveling! I had a long meeting to go to that lasted from eleven to three-thirty. I did not expect it to go that long, and I met someone at the meeting who turned out to be very interesting. She started an online business, and we chatted all the way to my stop. Then, as I was getting out of the station to get a taxi, there was a guy walking behind me, a bit in my personal space. I turned to look at him because he was singing and his voice was quite lovely. He was very close to me as I mentioned before, and I got the opportunity to actually look at him. He was very striking, tall, with distinctive eyes. I needed to do something across the street and saw a friend of mine and we got into a bit of a chat, so when I crossed the street again, I was not expecting him to suddenly appear and give me a big complement. It was unusual. I felt so odd that I began to laugh. Then I returned his complement by telling him that he has a nice singing voice. He was outrageously flirting with me. I felt as though I was in an alternative universe, it was so instant. We stood talking and he asked me for my number, but I took his instead. Then I felt someone looking at me. I turned and it was my sisters ex-boyfriend who is here for a week from New York. I introduced him and then he and I started catching up. I got into a taxi finally, and he did as well. He did not pay for me and I did not stop out at my house. It had been a very emotionally intense day, the weather and then the people I dealt with today...it was a lot. I felt like I needed a moment to process everything. Meeting that guy, I don't know what to make of it? Is he sincere? The amount of attention paid me...and the asking for my number, just like yesterday too, where I did not give him my number either...I know what to expect, and I bring my experience to the moment. I told the guy today that I would not give him my number because I am working and I am divorced and not interested in meeting men right now. He was not deterred by my statement. He was quite smooth, telling me that he was taken with me and would like to just talk with me more, and get to know me. Ok. You are laying it on, aren't you! Men do one of two things where I am concerned, they either come on real strong or they try to play it low key in an attempt to seem cool. I know that I can engage any man in a conversation where I leave him interested to speak to me again. I can discuss almost any topic you throw at me, and I am a listener, so that and eye contact followed by actually finding their jokes funny...that does it. That is not an issue that I have with men. I like men. I am not intimidating or stuck up, so I am very relaxed and myself. My issue comes when a man is not being straight with me when we are getting to know each other...as happened with The Towers. He spent years Skyping me and then sent mixed messages that were just exhausting and damn boring...completely time wasting. My experience today brought up for me some issues that I have to deal with about myself. This guy seemed overly exuberant. He didn't seem insincere, but my experiences have really left me more jaded than I thought I was. I do not know what it would take to make me comfortable? Perhaps it would have to be a very, very slow movement to friendship, where he really shows me who he is. I wouldn't want to be judging the person, looking and expecting something that I need to red flag. My experiences have been that a great deal of time is spent knowing each other...talking a lot,going out...at my age, men have sex clearly imprinted on their faces. Its kinda sad actually. I can't get used to that fact. Thinking that the Architect and I could become friends in the vein of my deceased partner was the last disappointment. I clearly still believe in love and have my views of it. But actually going through relationships, is something else altogether, and that is what I am writing about now.