indeed grateful

Leave it all behind. Focus on what I am to build. Forget that noise. Be too busy being and doing what it is I want to do to be great for myself and my child. Have fun. See everything as a benefit to me. I even said to myself that, in an alternate universe, my "Y' and I are blissfully happy and in another, we never met. The multiverse is such a beautiful, convenient thing. It would be very satisfying for it to be the true theory of everything. It would mean that there is actually no reason to regret, because somewhere else in the space time continuum, I have achieved , surpassed and never experienced what i am facing in this life. That knowledge gets all of us if you think about it, off the hook where carrying around guilt, shame, anxiety, sadness etc can be a constant. It puts a perspective on things that without it, makes everything we presently do in this life...life. It says that death is transitory. Whatever I am holding to strongly in this world is fleeting and time is a construct and not linear at all. Life is a mindfuck, so stop filling your head with tidbits, don't make life a fast food meal. Savor it instead.