very grateful

This evening my "Y" husband was supposed to drop our child to me. I was out, but wrote him to suggest that as I was quite close to where he lives, he could pick me up and we proceed to my house. He writes me back and says that I don't seem to understand how much he dislikes being in my presence, so no, he won't pick me up and he's changing everything around to another day. This man has said and done so many ridiculous things, but this one is really a head scratcher. Also tonight, I dealt with another person behaving really foolish around me. But this time, I know that neither issue is about me, although I am observing them. What I did tonight was weigh the situation for once. I could step all the way back, and all the way out of the frame. I asked myself, as I have only ever really looked at it for other people or in movies and literature...I can change my vibration. I don't have to settle for this. this experience and follow up that can go on, as it has gone on for years and years. I don't have to accept this life as I am believing it is today. I am absolutely free to make of my life what I damn well deserve. Something about his absurd behavior helped with this positioning, because at first I searched to find whether I felt a twinge of hurt. Then, I asked myself, why should I feel that way? After the hypothetical question that I out to myself yesterday...the answer was that somehow, I hold him in some regard. How could I do such a think to someone who is so reprehensible? It made it easier to see it for what it was. What I wrote yesterday really helped considerably. Holding someone who treats you badly in a lofty place is to miss yourself. Why did I have that sad inkling to want to give him any regard at all? As he refuses to give any to me? Was I really that badly off in my thinking? No. I was not. I could work my way through the momentary stall, and I did. As I called out to my higher self, I very effortlessly saw the illusion for what it was. His being a bully, I was caving in through fear...I don't want to be disliked...the other person I mentioned from tonight helped me reach this conclusion. My "Y" and the person whom I shall call 'the Architect," because they played this hand on this night, I was able to stand on my own two feet and rebuke the nonsense that in another time would have made me feel that something was wrong with me, and I had to work out why I was drawing such people to me. My perspective now, as I contemplated what happened, is that I don't have to stand for it. My higher self is literally shedding the skin or limitation here. I don't have to settle. I don't have to write things like my "Y" represented the most important emotional relationship to me...and believe that that means that I cannot move on, or cannot find someone that will make my hesitation to move on from him look like the most absurd decision I have ever made! I am not stuck, he is. I have no reason to tell him the things he lets trip from his tongue. My only concern is that our child has chosen to come into this when I felt that I knew a better man the one I now deal with. He is not going to get my energy. he's not going to little me down to being bitter or lose focus. His is a tired, pathetic game. No use can come of it. I pray that he does not damage his health too severely, because that behavior isn't about me and all about him. I think the Architect and I thank him and I thank all of the people who in their perceived negative attitude towards me are actually helping point my way out of this reality that does not suit me anymore. Thank you, thank you. i can move on. Thank you.