closer and some other thoughts

I wrote about some carts a few weeks back.Well now I think that I am getting closer to how I want the whole think to work. I spent some time yesterday focusing on what my vision is, and was very pleased with the outcome.It is experimental stuff, and its very exciting to me. Sometimes when I am writing, if I really put down all the things leading me here, it might be dizzying to do. For example, I find one of my colleagues to be quite condescending at times, and it irked me. So I sat down and worked out what it was in myself that this was affecting. The answer that I got was illuminating. One, I petulantly stated that I don't want a man telling me what to do. But when I looked more deeply, i found that my real issue was that I actually feel that I am in an environment where the rules are sketchy at best and on the one hand, I have so much to offer, and yet, I feel challenged by what is there that gives me the impression that I will have obstacles to get what I want to do, done. He just represents the gatekeeper of that ambivalence. So, tonight, my answer to myself is fuck that. JUST DO IT. Lol. In the past I might have spent a long time on reacting, but I have come a very long way from that. I now ask, what is this showing me? I have also spent the last month or two wanting to do some of my personal work, but I have not decided exactly what it is I want to do? That one sounds stranger still. But really, it has to do with another project that I really have to decide whether it should be wearable or not? As i am writing that, I think that I can make this concept both! In fact, the very concept of the "Fun house," may be the way that I should go for this other project. NEXT...