Discouraged (courage)

In my musings about what I shall do when I return home, I have built up several scenarios. The first being that I must do all that I do from a position of positive courage and strength. I have heard so much of what I am likely to be told before, so I have the element of familiarity and that is an advantage.
I am dealing with pig headed people, people used to their own way. What they all do not expect is for me to be strong and to stand my ground. That is the wild card.
This week it seems that my husband and I have the same view of the other. I have not written to him and he has not written to me either. He is very good at negativity. In fact his Ph'D should be in that.
I am amazed at how much negative energy he puts into his day and his life! This is not the man whom I met so long ago. He was always a bit negative, but he was also so smart and optimistic. It is true that he must feel a bit beaten down by life, but life is a maliable thing and is dependent on what you put into it.
He has been positive when I have felt hopelessly negative as recently as a year ago. Because of what I plan to do when i return, i can see him very differently now. Instead of focusing on the person of the moment, if I cast my mind back to all that I see that is good, it makes it easier to deal with him, because I know that he is really a good person under all of that rough exterior. unfortunately he is very familiar with anger and being unkind.
One might ask, then why go into the belly of the beast?
Well right now, I feel like David to his Goliath.
I have seen his strength and his moves and it is now time to make my own.