Ponder this

The greatest good that can come to anyone is the forming within him of an absolute certainty of himself, and of his relationship to the Universe. Forever removing the sense of heaven as being outside himself.
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I found that in my little black book, where I write down all of the hunches and feelings that leap out at me. I have found it very helpful, particularly before I travelled. I started doing it when I found alot of the things I was feeling, to be intenable and overwhelming. I do not use the book as much now, I use it for other notes, and ideas, phone numbers, research and inspiration. But it still works when I need it to.

Last night was a moment. I was really feeling down, and had to buoy myself up again. The good thing was that I knew what I was feeling and I was able to work on myself relatively quickly. I kept reminding myself that bad times do not go on forever either.

I offered the suggestion to my uncle that I would change my flight to today, and go with him to Trinidad, as he has to go for his fathers' funeral. he returns next Wednesday. That gives him seven days there.

He thanked me, but said that he was concerned that if I chose to do that, I would still miss the opportunity to do what I should do, which is get my money in hand.

I still wonder whether it is at all possible to change my ticket and shall call the travel agent and ask a question in the next few minutes when I finish this post. When I thought about what I was willing to do, I still felt a stab at my heart. If I do this, it would mean not seeing my little one for Christmas! It is still a big compromise on my side. The very thought makes me cringe.

But, I remember what I just started the post with, Heaven is within me.