I woke up

I woke up this morning and felt rejuvenated. I am not sure how or why, but here are the messages that I have been getting from my morning.

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Stop being afraid of upsetting others, and acting as though you need permission to be an adult. You want to be an Artist and you want to write. Yesterday you walked all over Toronto with Stephen and you felt so confident that the city was embracing you. Everything looked possible. You did eye the 20 million jackpot and wonder as well. It is the season to fell positive and happy to go on to the new year with confidence about the future. But moreso, you felt yesterday, the same feeling you got in New York, that you can rule the place with your vision.
I feel almost unable to actually put into words the feelings that are coming to me. Let me just say that I feel much better.

I am going to venture to just write it all down. It has no linear meaning.

Be the joy you want to feel. Allow your husband the opportunity to be who he wants to be. The door will always be open for him, if and when he wants to feel the embrace of joy.
Make no judgements one way or the other.
Spend that time with your child that you want to spend. Make her delariously happy to be around you, as you know you feel around her.
Let all those who love her, into your life have a wonderful Christmas, and carry those positive feelings into your year.
make happy plans, like going to Tobago and spending a few days swimming, visiting the German Art Gallery, eating Tobago food and taking lots of pictures.

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Stop worrying that you will not get approval, or that you will have a physical wrangle for your child. Or that your husband plans to make your life a nightmare. You have only positive intentions for your child and yourself. It is time that you stop cowering in your mind. Thinking that you do not deserve happiness.

Going out yesterday, you saw how wonderful friendship is. You spent time with someone who loves you. Someone who is genuine.
The way to win this war with your husband is through LOVE.
Keep love in your heart, he will come around. And even if he doesn't, he cannot look at you and say that your child is in bad hands, because he will not be able to deny the joy he will see within her.

This also means that you are in complete control. You shall not allow any negative talk about him. You shall not encourage any division. You have a choice.
if anyone attempts to hijack your time, you shall snap the whip.
You will have the door open for going back and forth. All shall lead by your example.
This is what and how it should always have gone. But you did not know that you had the power.

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