note to self

Ever so often I feel as though nothing is happening for me. It is a bad feeling to me, because I really feel as though when I am in such a mood, everything that I have worked for crashes and I have to start again from scratch.
I was looking at some film of my little one and I ache, ache sometimes with missing her. I feel like I might go out of my mind for missing her. I feel so lonely without love, without support, without some affection in my life. I feel embarrased to admit it. But it is true. I think I could endure what I am going through alot better if I had that assurance.